I am dying (the First English article)

Dear Fifine BB:



Thank you bring me this more then three-year-love with happiness. However what I did for you is a little spirit exchange and lots of materials. I always remember what you did for me, until forever.



This is my first love and how a lot I pay for you. It doesn't matter, because we were happy during these days.



Is it only exchange? I paid you money and materials you want -- from the first cheap computer, study loan, two mobile phones, computer monitor, electronics equipments, your preparing money for first job. However the price they are, these just a sand for me, not more than the imply loves. I just want you happy and I will happy, too. You gave me a pure heart full of love and even your body, you service me everything, scare about I will feel hot in your home, worried about my safety and clean.



So, I don't think it just a exchange. We ever fall into love deeply. People always regret something after it disapper.



Open the memorize in our hearts, in these three years. We go to lots of places -- from north to south -- Taipei, Taichung, Lugang, Sun-Moon Lake, Tainan, Kaohsiung, Hualien, Taitung -- even worldwide from west to east -- Taiwan, HongKong, France, Netherland (passed by Belgium), finally Sweden (Include lovely Uppsala and Gama Stan Stockholm).

I still hope to bring you travel another place -- A-li mountain, Peng-Hu etc., -- even countrys -- Greek, England. May I?



When I open mails you wrote to me and I wrote to you. I know I always ignore your feeling. It just because I used to your existance. I thought your heart will always nearby me, standby for me. Yes, I make a mistake. I regret what I did for you, but this is no work.

I couldn't see you are my treasure before, until your leave.



What I will do finally is to accompany with you and redeem my fault. However our love will be continued or be broken up.



LOVE - is a duration, not a result.



Yes, I understand your pressure on me. I talked with my family, They just want my future wife do better. They are not hate you, just want their only son have a better wife. Could you understand? Yes, It's really SELFISH.



How don't I selfish, too?

Yes, I can do anything for you.

Yes, I can't live without you.

Yes, I want our love feeling back.

Yes, I can pay all myself, even my life.

Yes, I really love you.

Yes, I always try to make you happy and do anything.

Could you agree my behavior?

Can we discuss about this?

What I do is just want you accompany with me.



YES, I AM SELFISH, I WANT ALL OF YOU.



How about you before? Selfish on me?

I knew you did this before. I'll remember your love. Hope you will be better to find a new soul mate -- It is what I try to be, may I fault? What do you think, do you want to give a chance?



For your happy, I might decide a really very hard decision --- I QUIT, don't you need?



Hope he can give you a whole live. However, wish you happiness and healthy forever. Such a gentle person like you will have a good fate.







WISH YOU.



CRYING TO LEAVE YOU.

ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU IN MY LIFE.



How satire it is, my first english article for you, and might be the last one.

It's you always ask me to do. Yes, I write it when I am in thousands pains. I must finish it to be a good ending.

There still one thing to do. Our love is begun from a HUG, I hope we can over it by a HUG, too, a SHAKED HUG. *smile*

Does my english grammer better than before? Hope you can give me a smile. Such a smily girl like you is beautifal women for me, OH! I am so crazy for you!



GOOD NIGHT, MY LOVE. Will you back to me?





Yours love BB,

Bill Chen.

2007/11/09